Life Update: My First Week at University

Today's post will be a bit of a personal one as it doesn't fall within the typical fashion or beauty based posts that I normally blog about. Most of you probably didn't know that I finished my first week, or three days actually, of post secondary education yesterday. I thought I'd share my experience with those who are curious and thought that this could be something I could look back on!



Honestly, I used to be so much in love with school during junior high but I guess things shifted a little when I got to high school and felt uninspired by my teachers and fellow classmates. I highly suggest anyone who's in school to surround themselves with individuals who are there to support and push you to reach your fullest potential! Find things and people that inspire you, and try your best not to fall into slumps just because you can. Stay driven!

 I guess you could say that in a lot of ways, I "discovered myself" in high school as those three years were the ones where I, as cliche as it sounds, realized who my real friends were and the types of people that I should avoid. Anyways, I've come to realize that I'm in many ways a push over. I fell into slumps just because I could and didn't try as hard as I could have because I had the option not to. Over the three years I've selected and created an exclusive circle of friends that I very dearly depended on so entering University where everyone would be going into different faculties was extremely difficult for me. It scared me, but I knew that I wouldn't be able to follow my best friends into their selected faculties just because I wanted to be with them, to support them, and to have them support me in an academic sense. I knew that I had to do what was right for me, and what I wanted to be seen doing in 4, 6, 8.... years time.

The ending of summer and the approaching of September 3rd was something I wasn't willing to face. In so many ways, I was ready for school. I had my schedule, school supplies, a new laptop.. but in other ways I really wasn't. Was I ready for an extremely heavy work load? Was I ready to pick up my slack and retire my procrastination for good? Was I ready to meet new people and put myself out there to receive the best education and campus experience ever? Nope, I really wasn't. I wasn't entering my classes knowing I'd make friends right off the bat and that I'd have new people to be with during breaks but I wasn't expecting people to be so cold. In 3 days time I learned that you have to make what you want happen, and that just sitting alone with two empty seats next to you won't draw a new potential best friend. Even though I see so many familiar faces on campus, and that lectures fall just under the hour, I've never felt so disconnected and in a lot of ways, alone.

I'm sure these are the feelings that follow the fresh meat status that I get for being a first year student on campus so I'm sure things will pick up and hopefully I'll learn to love the aspects of University that I'm still not sure about; the 10 minute walks to and from, the huuuuuge crowds, English class, burning calves..... In a lot of ways I'm excited for what the next few years hold and I can't wait to "rediscover" myself and definitely do a lot of growing.